I continued working in Silicon Valley through the mid-90’s until I retired to be a sensual researcher. I mention this now because that nerdy inquisitive, data-gathering, puzzle-solving intellectual side of me has been quite useful in my menopause research. I am questioning my assumptions and the popular ideas regarding menopause, so at times I take that big brain out for a spin. On this ride I explore menopause and hormones.
Where does that leave me? My nerd side wants to go on a quest for more details to fill in the blanks, but from my sensualist perspective I am most interested in my experience of life. My head was clearing up on the topic. I could separate fact from mystery. I could wrap my mind around the fact that there are things about our bodies that we experience moment to moment, yet science is at a loss to explain why or how.
Becoming aware of my propensity to want to qualify and quantify my experience and look to science for answers, I also realized that there could be an entirely different way of going through the change and approaching midlife. I appreciate science and facts, but it is not my goal to become a medical or scientific expert. Do I even have a goal related to menopause? Getting informed had freed me up. It is also clear that I would be looking elsewhere for what would guide me through this transition.