1) climacteric which basically means climax and it’s all downhill from here and
2) midlife crisis.
While the meaning of midlife crisis is absurdly obvious, I went one step further on this little word exploration and looked up crisis.
Of course I really did not have to do that, but on that day I was looking for confirmation that menopause was the opposite of a pleasurable life. I found what I was looking for. The first synonym listed -- big trouble.
It dawned on me that the seed that sprouted all of my questions and concerns gave me clues to what I do want, what my desires are for this time in my life. At the kernel of that seed I uncovered my goals.
“I want to experience the changes I am feeling in my body from menopause pleasurably.”